if i only knew
Well I want to do what you want me to
But something inside me says, “No.”
I want to drop; and I want to stop
But something inside me says, “Go.”
I’m searching for that voice that always makes my choice,
That has a mind of its own.
Just when it’s almost found is when it leaves town.
I never find it at home.
Is it that I want to, is it that I have to
Do the things that I do?
Would all be so clear when I hold you near
If I only knew.
It all seems so right in the tender night
As a soft breeze makes the curtains sway
But in the first morning light I can feel the primal flight
Of a cold wind that blows it all away.
I’m standing in the middle of a continuous riddle
That says yes and no at the same time.
And seconds become centuries; and certainties become worries
In the ache of my mind.
Is it that I want to, is it that I have to
Do the things that I do?
Would all be so clear when I hold you near
If I only knew.
I hear the bells chime; is it really that time?
We’ve hardly begun our chat.
We were having so much fun but I really got to run.
I got to go wash my cat.
Makes my heart blue; if you only knew
You’d see it for what it is.
When you got to go; you got to go
No matter the strength of the kiss.
Is it that I want to or is it that I have to
Do the things that I do?
Would all be so clear when I hold you near
If I only knew.
Would all be so simple; a life principle
If everything was desire.
Then it would be my voice that I hear making my choice
And my heart that is on fire.
So at the end of the day when everyone has had their say
And something needs to be done
When I lie down with you it would be that I always knew
That you are the one.
Is it that I have to or is it that I want to
Do the things that I do?
Would all be so clear when I hold you near
If I only knew.